Okay first things first, I eased my way into 2019… Won’t lie, I pretty much spent January in Jamaica, it wasn’t necessary, BUT it was amazing and I had a lot of time to think. It’s also why I’m writing this post on January 28th…
My incredible and motivated husband wrote his “intentions” (we don’t do resolutions) on New Year’s Eve. I, on the other hand, have been contemplating mine all month long.
I started with work-related intentions, then health and fitness-related intentions, and of course, the mother of all New Year’s intentions, the relationship-related ones. After I jotted down my thoughts for each category, I began to see a theme emerge: I have been holding back because I have been scared, and in 2019 I intend to be less afraid.
The truth of the the matter is that I haven’t been “walking the walk” when it comes to being the best version of myself, and that means I haven’t been the best version of myself for others. This is due to one thing: I have been allowing my insecurities, anxieties and fears to get the best of me.
Thus my INTENTION for 2019 is to start NAMING, FACING and CONQUERING (okay maybe just getting comfortable) MY FEARS (BIG & small)!!!
So what’s #1 on my list of Fears?
The stranger, the acquaintance, the friend of a friend, the really good friend, the best friend, the family member aka the unknown and known “reader” of Upper East Styler.
Since starting Upper East Styler I have been overwhelmingly excited about sharing my take on Style, empowering women with clothing based on their individual shapes, and of course sharing my enthusiasm for Vintage.
I am 100% confident that I can help you, your friends, your sister, your Mom, the lady next door etc. to get to Know Your Shape, Find Your Drape and Divine Your Style.
What I am NOT as comfortable with is how to best get your attention and increase awareness about Upper East Styler. This age of social media is really really confusing. Particularly if you aren’t exactly a self-promoter.
I am 38 which means that I am definitely young enough to understand and to use Insta, Twitter, FB, etc., but I am also old old enough to feel uncomfortable with splashing my face across your feed all the time.
If I do go on a social media blitz, then I worry that I’m coming across as self-indulgent, ridiculous, a wannabe?
If I speak too truthfully about who I am then I worry you won’t like me.
If I post a picture in a bathing suit or all dressed up…I immediately ask myself if it’s being screen-shotted and texted around with eye-roll emojis?
The fact is that (as of now), almost all of you already know me personally. So you know my story, and you know my personality and that means that you know while I’m occasionally riddled with anxiety and insecurity. In person, I am ALWAYS honest about myself.
Throughout the month of February I will be going through my list of fears (rational and maybe not as rational) and I will attempt to tackle them with candor and aplomb. Well…at least there’ll be candor.
So HOW am I going to face my #1 FEAR aka ALL OF YOU?
I’m going to treat you like I would in person. This means being honest about who I am, and that will involve sharing more than just a perfectly staged post because that isn’t who I am at all.
About (the real) Me: